Today's Mission

watching: prison break
mood: dunno

So what has been happening in my life lately? why am I barely ever posting anymore. Reasons are plenty, there is nothing new in my life I can tell you. Writing about the 100th Tokyo Decadance wouldn't be very satisfying for you to read either, or would it?

Okay, no great pictures from that event, simply because I was drunk enough to do dirty pole dancing in a two piece skin tight whit PVC outfit, managed to break my camera, spilled a full double gin tonic over myself and then hitting the ground. Went home by taxi and don't remember how I got into my room, when Kaytea came by spontaneously at 5 a.m. to have a beer with me. Well, she had one, I was far gone and if I had drunk one more zip of alcohol I probably would have passed out.

Friday, means two days ago, same thing, dressed up in a full Takuya Angel outfit to go to my school party, managed it to get so drunk in 2 hrs, to be still so hammered hrs later to get into a huge argument with a dude from N.Y. Still don't know how to feel about that argument. My voice at least needed a full day to recover, so did my body. Means Saturday I stayed in, so did I today and I'm not planning on going out. For 2 days, I just wanna be a couch potato again. From tomorrow on I'm gonna move on. Break, summer break, what a blessing 3 weeks of studying by myself and not going to school. Sounds like heaven to me baby. My brother is coming to Japan in about 10 days, too, which is gonna make time flow by, at least I hope so. I need a break from Japan, badly. I've never been in one country straight for a whole year in my life and it's starting to make me real nervous. Why? Well, for the same reason some people will always be rooted to the spot they were born.

I still am planning to leaver Germany for a couple of years after hopefully finally graduating from University in 2 years. But I for sure as hell know that I will not come to Japan for that. And China ain't really a candidate either, to be honest.
This would make my parents really happy if they already knew about that, but what they don't know about is that I'm neither planning on staying in Europe. For a very specific reason the appeal of being far away from Europe is just way to high to not follow that impulse. We will see how I feel about that in 2 years, after I spent in the madness called China. Right now, I'm honestly thinking of going to Australia for a while. Just to run a little further away from settling down and facing what other people are looking forward to.

listening to: Juliette and The Licks (I'm kinda having a strange music taste phase!)
mood: good.

I have to admit, rainy season got to me. I became a complete couch potato, but yesterday when I left my house to go to school and a ray of sunlight came down on my face, my heart leaped and I felt happy for the first time in a couple of weeks. I started disliking Tokyo and wanted to get out of it (which I still want, but now waiting for the summer holidays, which start in 2 weeks, doesn't seem so an bearable anymore). The weather slowly getting better and meeting friends finally are getting me out of my rut.
I met Miho yesterday, whom I haven't seen forever and her friend Momo-chan to go for some Italian food in Yoyogi Uehara. It was nice, of course not like Italian food in Italy (or Euorpe for that matter) but it was nice and you all know how much nice food makes me happy (^_^) Nice conversations and a lot of laughter. God that felt so good. Miho invited me to come along to her chef's girlfriend's birthday party. I've met them before and have been to their house before, too, so I decided to join them. So today I'm meeting Miho in Shinjuku at the South Exit around 5 p.m. to buy something we can bring along to the party. We will probably leave around 10:30, cuz Miho probably has something to do on Sunday and I wanna go to Tokyo Decadance tonight. I need to dress up again and do full make-up, I haven't done it for such a long time.

My life is really boring right now. Part wise I blame the rainy season, it's pouring rain 24/7 for a couple of days now and I don't feel like getting wet, so I turned into a complete couch potato.
I got totally hooked on the series Supernatural and watched the first season in two days, after that I got hooked on Prison Break, it only took me 2 or 3 days to watch the complete first season and the first part of the second season. Japan are merchandise fuckers, I never heard of splitting the release of a series in two parts before, but in no other country people rent series' at a DVD shop either.
What I like about Supernatural is the fact that a couple of people always die before the boys are able to kill whatever it is causing trouble. Hititai shit like Charmed just pisses me off, not only because it is badly made, but nobody ever dies.
Prison Break it just wicked good, cuz it's concept just makes you stay glued to your TV, or laptop in my case, cuz I don't have a DVD player. Thank God Japan has the same region code as Germany does *woot woot*

What else have I been doing? Not much to be honest. I give my best to try to find an apartment for Eiji, but the girl who at first seemed very open about it told us like 2 weeks later that she wanted a girl to live with her former room or apartment mates, motherfucker, make your mind up first.
Now I'm contact with this guy, who seems very open and he even suggested talking to one of his friends, because they kinda already have one for the room they put into the internet. But I guess we will find one eventually, at least I hope so.
Tomorrow I'm gonna meet him in the afternoon to just hang out, I think it's his birthday tomorrow, too (o_O)

My brother is thinking about coming over to Japan for a bit, but since he hasn't answered my last mail, I still don't know if he's really coming, and if he is, when.
I have a three weeks summer break coming up and I want to do some traveling. I wanna go see Hiroshima, Okinawa and Hokkaido. I also wanna go to see the Ise shrine, but I might do that either on my way to Hiroshima or just give myself a good long weekend once and go down there with a Shinkansen. Takes quite a while, but I really wanna see that thing before I leave Japan.

I've gone wild on the Lover Rock collection. I own so much Lovers Rock now, it's incredible. I still am in the need for some more shopping, don't know in what direction I wanna go though.
I'm already getting bored of my blueish green hair, it's so normal (o_O) I mean of course not having tons of plastic on my head is a lot easier right now cuz a) I can wash my hair without any complicated drying methods and b) I can sleep without getting a headache (^_~) But when I look into the mirror I feel normal.
Somehow I doubt that I will go on like this in Germany, I am actually really considering growing back my eyebrows and choosing a more natural color for my hair, but to be honest, that might just be my mood right now, I might not go through with one more transformation back to normal just yet.

The other day I totally that TDC was that night, and after sending Kenji off to the station I decided to go, even though I was not appropriately dressed. My totally ripped D&G Jeans, some Ed Hardy T-shirt, All Stars, some kinda ripped and torn vest normal make-up, but none of the usual suspects seemed to mind, they all pretty much know what I look like on a normal day anyway, so no need to hide.

To be honest, it all became a little quiet at the moment, but we will see. Maybe that isn't the worst thing.

I'm starting to look forward moving back to Germany. And the fact that a great deal of my friends here in Japan are traveling to Europe a lot anyway makes it even easier for me.

Another thing I really do look forward to is going to different countries next year. I'm planning on visiting friends all over the world and I will follow through with that, cuz having been stuck in Japan or a whole year is a good thing and it was fun, but it also makes me feel very limited, I'm not used to be in one place for such a long time and it's starting to bother me quite a lot.

A couple of people start bothering me, too....but that's normal, I guess. I just need the normal insanity of my friends back home, the very different way of mindless drinking, the conversations about the most private things as if we were talking about what to eat tomorrow. I somehow miss that. And hanging out with Tea for the last three months made me realize that.

Kaytea just totally made my day!!!!

HE KNOWS THAT I EXIST!!!!!

watching: Bones
mood: strangely enough it is good, I'm excited.

I was on the phone with Lufthansa for 20 minutes only to learn that they couldn't help me, but at least they gave me the SAS number and I called them. Rescheduling my flight took them 5 minutes. So my flight back is booked. I'm leaving Japan on the 30th of September for good. It's a very final feeling, even though there are still 3 months to go, but no one knows better that 3 months are hilariously short than me.
Going back to Germany felt really awful to me, cuz I felt that I had nothing to look forward too, but that actually changed a lot during the last week. Astrid, Mel and me decided to move together and become flat mates. So now I not only don't have to struggle finding a place to stay within a time span of 3 days when I'm back in Germany, I also will have company and not feel as alone as I might have had moving into a huge apartment by myself. This actually has a lot of good things to it. Not only do I get to live with two extremely cool people who are easy to live with, BUT it spares me a lot of trouble. For example getting all my furniture out of the container to move them in an apartment that would have to be big enough for all that stuff, just t pack it all up again after one year. So a lot of costs are spared, which makes my dad really happy. Talked to my dad on the phone and he was really happy about my concern about all the money, so he asked me if I really didn't wanna have a car when I go back, and I was just like SURE I want to have a car, but I don't want something really expensive and big just for one year, and he was like, don't worry kid, I'm gonna buy you a Volksawagen Golf, back to the type of car I had the first time, but it's all good. I for sure will miss my Audi TT Roadster, but I guess that is the price you pay when you move to a different country every year. But yeah, apartment, car, flight back, everything is good right now.
Maybe having the chance to more or less take a friend back to Germany (Eiji) is lightening up my spirits, too. Need something Japanese in my life *GGG* All I have to do now, is to organize how to get all my shit back to Germany, but I still have about 2 months to do that.
My brother might come visit me (^_^) But he fo sho is not gonna stay with me, he's gonna stay at a hotel.
So yeah, now that I have things to look forward to, when I go back to Germany, makes leaving Japan at least a bit easier (^_~)